One night I was praying in my bedroom in Redding, CA, believing for a radical encounter with the Heavenly Father’s love. That night I had a dream of my step-dad coming to me, crying, and asking me to forgive him. This was a huge deal because I had blamed him for my parent’s divorce, bankruptcy, the foreclosure of our home, as well as the trauma we went through as a family when he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in 2009. He passed away in August of 2012 from the cancer. My family experienced so much grief and pain for so many years that it actually felt abnormal to be happy during that time.
Through the dream, the Lord very gently revealed that I had carried hatred and unforgiveness towards my step-dad, even after he had passed. God wasn’t mad, He just showed me that this was a place that He wanted me to experience His love. He wanted to heal this wound. This actually was a relationship that God had always desired for me to receive love from, but I never chose to let the love in. The morning after having the dream, I met with two Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry interns who led me through prayers of forgiveness, release, and blessing over my step-dad and myself!
Now, when I think about the dream, I see myself in a warm embrace of my step-dad. And for the first time, I actually feel the love of my step-dad and Heavenly Father getting into my soul! This has brought so much emotional freedom and security into my life! Thank you, Papa God!