Scott is a second year BSSM student but seven years ago his life was very different. It got so bad that he even considered taking his own life. It took a blind bunny rabbit to help him see the truth that set him free.
Scott was married and had two kids but he was destroying his marriage. Bound with lust, pornography and addiction, Scott was having affairs and cheating on his wife. All these things were done in secret, nobody in the family knew about it, but Scott knew and he got into a place of such emotional brokenness that he couldn’t live with himself anymore. He ended up falling into a deep depression, not being able to get out of bed for days. He couldn’t stop crying and he started taking anxiety medication which wasn’t helping.
At the time, his youngest son started to attend a Christian preschool. Every morning his son had a Bible teacher who reminded Scott of his own mother: she was strong in the faith and was teaching his boy how to pray (all the things he wasn’t doing or modeling at home).
After seeing his father in bed for many days in a row, Scott’s son, who would usually come to his dad’s bedside, one night, as he saw him crying he asked: “Dad, what’s wrong?” His question was met with silence because Scott was not prepared to tell anyone what was going on, “his skeletons were locked in a closet and they were not coming out.”
His reaction, or lack of it, did not faze his four year old boy who freely shared his wisdom: “Hey dad, I think you should pray.”
That night, following his son’s advice, Scott cried out to the Lord. It wasn’t a fancy prayer: “Jesus help me! Can you just help me?” And He did. God reminded Scott of an encounter he had with Him when he was still a little boy.
When Scott was seven years old his dad left home and he had a really hard time dealing with it. His mother was very aware of his struggles and she thought it might be a good idea to get him a pet, so she got him two prolific rabbits which in no time produced a litter of eight bunny rabbits.
When bunnies are born their eyes are closed and it takes them a couple of weeks for their eyes to fully open. One by one their eyes started to open and there were happy bunnies hopping around everywhere, except for this one bunny whose eyes never opened. Scott was pretty torn up about it. They didn’t have a lot of money but still his mum took the rabbit to the vet to be checked out. The vet confirmed that the bunnie had no eyeballs in his eye sockets. This bunny was never going to see. When she brought the bunnie home and gave Scott the sad news, he was devastated. His mother, who was a woman of faith and held on to Jesus for everything, looked at him and said: “Son, in the Bible it says if you pray and ask God for anything and you believe that He will do it, than He will.” Scott wasn’t used to pray but that night when he went to bed, crying his eyes out, he pled that poor rabbit’s case the best he could: “I have no idea how to believe that you are going to do this, God, but I believe that you will.”
The next day when Scott got up, that bunny rabbit had eyes! His mum went crazy, she started telling everybody about it and telling him that he was going to be “the next healing evangelist called to the nations.” Scott felt embarrassed with all the attention and he really didn’t know what to do with his mother’s words, so he refused to talk about it, locked that memory up, deep inside, and gave it no further thought. All he had received from church were rules and laws which he knew he couldn’t fulfill. He didn’t really understand the Gospel so, because he didn’t want to live like an hypocrite, he ended up going the other way. Now, thirty years later, laying in bed that night, completely broken, praying the simple prayer his son had told him to pray, he remembered the God that he had cried out to as a boy, who gave his blind bunny rabbit eyes to see. He said to himself: “Surely I’ve made a mess of my life, but if you did that for me then, maybe you will save my family now.”
Scott still remembers how that night was the roughest night of his life, as he found himself caught between two battling thoughts: “You just need to tell your wife, you need to come clean”, and “There is no way out, you just need to take your life.” This went on all night long. It was God’s grace and the power of his own thirty year old testimony that sustained him in that life and death battle, until he finally surrendered, and in the morning he told the truth to his wife.
Everything broke down. His disclosures were so hurtful that his wife didn’t want anything to do with him after that. She didn’t even want to look at his face. Scott knew he had done the right thing but now he needed guidance on what to do next, where to go from there. Suddenly he remembered a testimony he had heard on a Facebook podcast six months before. At that time he wanted nothing to do with church and God, but to his surprise the guy who was sharing a personal testimony was a former friend of his who was a bodybuilder. Scott was curious and decided to watch it. He was moved by his friend’s story but what really got his attention was the way the pastor started to speak directly to him, right to his heart, as if he knew Scott’s story.
At the time, Scott just walked away from it, but now, 6 months later, he was reminded of it and went back to listen to those men again. He did some research and found out that this pastor was based in his own town, in the church he grew up in as a kid.
Next Sunday morning he went to that church. Scott couldn’t find the pastor he was looking for but as soon as he walked to the front there was one man who saw him coming with tears running down his face. Knowing he was broken, this man stretched out his arms and lovingly asked him: “Are you ready to come home?” And Scott just let go of everything he had been trying to hang to and surrendered it all to Jesus: “In that moment my life radically changed!”
The days ahead were not easy but in the midst of great brokenness, while being assaulted with destructive or hopeless thoughts, Scott would go out to his backyard, day after day, and he would lift his hands to the Lord and pray a simple prayer: “Jesus help me, I don’t know what to do, help me.” And every single day, the Lord would give him insight and guide him step by step on how to clean up messes and make wrong things right. “I’m getting right with God and I’m not giving up on my family” were the words he would continuously repeat to those he interacted with. He didn’t know it at the time, but he was actually prophesying that God was going to do something, that he was putting his trust in Him and that he wasn’t going to give up. Everybody around him was telling him that “He was crazy, he had ruined things so badly that the best thing to do was to just pick up the pieces and move on”, but Scott kept proclaiming that he was not giving up: “I will do what it takes and everyday be in God’s presence and ask for His counsel and guidance.”
In the meantime, Scott moved out of his house and went to live with his mother, but he would still go home at night to tuck his kids in bed. His wife would leave as soon as he got there. She didn’t want anything to do with him. He knew she was hurting and he respected her process by not imposing his presence on her. One night, after going through the usual bedtime routines with his kids, he was by the door just getting ready to leave when his wife started a conversation. She asked him: “What did you do today?”
Scott started sharing with her all the things the Lord had told him to do, so he could clean up his messes, and how he had been doing them. In that moment she knew he was a different man and she asked him: “What about me? You are now on a spiritual journey with God, what about me?” Scott asked his wife if she had ever seen God do a miracle before. When she replied “no”, he told her the “blind bunny rabbit story”. She was impacted by that story but she still needed answers on what to do next. “What I have learned from the Lord is that a man is supposed to lead his family and I believe that, if I lead and you follow, God is going to restore all of this.” With these hopeful words Scott left.
Later, laying in his mum’s couch, processing all this with the Lord, Scott got a text message from his wife: “Tonight I was brought to my knees in my living room and I gave my life to the Lord.” The following night, when Scott went to tuck in his kids, his wife, who had dug up the old King James family Bible, opened it up and started reading Jesus’ words about how we must forgive if we want to be forgiven. While she was reading, God immediately hit her heart with forgiveness. Scott vividly remembers that liberating moment: “It didn’t take years; Addiction was broken; His power and His love just came in and transformed our lives immediately, and we connected in a way that we had never connected in our previous seven years of marriage.”
God’s loving and empowering grace radically turned this family’s life around, and today the whole family serves the Lord.
They went on to have more kids and those kids, who are now teenagers, recently had a fun experience of their own because they have their own bunnies now. In the last year they had a litter of bunnies and one of them was born with a birth defect. They couldn’t even understand how it was possible for this bunny to be alive because half of its skull was missing. The original “blind bunny testimony” had been so celebrated in Scott’s house that his daughter decided to pray for this bunny too. The next morning this bunny’s skull was perfectly whole! God did it again! Hope is a place where we can radically encounter the power of God.
May you be filled with hope for the impossible and the certainty that His hand of loving kindness and tender mercies are upon you.