I grew up as an Amish Mennonite girl. I struggled with feeling powerless and not having a voice. God moved Heaven on my behalf. I took a dive into God’s goodness and have been transformed.
Even though I loved many things in my old community, my heart began to get extremely hungry for more of the Lord. I wanted to hear His voice every day but did not know how to hear Him. I began to realize He was stirring my heart.
Then I heard about Bethel Church and Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry and was amazed at the stories of what God was doing. I wanted to be where God was and tangibly experience Him in new ways. Six weeks before school started, God opened the doors for me to move to Redding. I was just out of my teens when I decided to move there. As a young single woman, this was monumental in my culture. My parents ended up joining me a year later. I had to depend completely on God instead of my family and relationships. However, it ended up being the best thing that could have happened to me. I really learned that my source of strength was God.
Within days of my arrival, I began to learn that I am powerful and that I am beautiful. The community God sent me empowered me to be myself. I had no idea what my voice was. I was extremely insecure.
One day in first year, I was talking to Holy Spirit with my mentor, and Holy Spirit said, “Tell everybody that you’re beautiful.” I was horrified. At first I said, “No, that is so arrogant!” But I ended up going around telling people, “I’m beautiful! I’m beautiful!” Telling everybody I was beautiful was a marking moment for me.
It was as if I had pushed a transformation button. Freedom marked me. I changed over a very short period of time. Boldness came over me. I went from being a very small, insecure girl to a woman who knew who she was, secure and free. For the first time, I felt as if I was flying. I was even able to get up in front of my whole class of 1,100 students and pray with fiery passion as I’d never done before!
The biggest transformation happened through the presence of God and my new community. I had so many intense encounters with Father God where He showed me that His love was an endless ocean and His love did not depend on my performance. People poured love into me until I thought I was going to drown. I was truly celebrated. It was so empowering to be in a community that was crazy about me and believed in me. Through God and family, my entire being changed. I have a voice. My life is changed forever.