I’ve grown up singing and recording music, but I was doing it to make something of myself, and it wasn’t long before I burned out. When I got to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, I hadn’t done music in four years, and I didn’t think I’d ever do it again.
In my first year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, I realized God believed in me more than I did. People often said I couldn’t do it, but He invested in me as a Father, and I felt believed in for the first time.
A year later I was face down in worship when I heard Him speak: “Now that you know your dreams are real, I need you to give them back to Me so I can show you what I can do.” The fear of the Lord was tangible, and in that moment I had a choice to have intimacy with Him or have my dreams fulfilled. I didn’t care if my dreams ever happened, and I chose Him.
This opened a raw place for me. I used to be skeptical when people got “drunk” in the Spirit, when they would become so overwhelmed with God’s presence that they would act drunk but three days later I went on a ministry trip and was drunk in the Spirit for the first time. I didn’t get off the ground for five months-I was experiencing His love for the first time. It was perfect love, and I didn’t care how I looked anymore. It spread to the rest of our class, and God’s presence became so intense at times that our normal schedule got thrown out the window. I never thought I’d pick up music again, and I didn’t care if I did.
At the end of the year I wrote a song about my experience. It took off, but I would wake up scared that I had picked up music for myself and it would become my identity again. God helped me one morning and said, “You haven’t picked it up. It’s still at my feet. I’m showing you what I can do with it.”
I’ve now recorded an album in Nashville, plan on releasing another, and one of my songs is on a radio station here in Redding. My heart behind my music is to release hope and awaken the dreams in every individual who hears it. And this time I’m enjoying the adventure and not trying to be something. I’m confident. I know I have nothing to prove but so much to give.